Every day i wake up struggling. Struggling to get up in the morning and get on with my day. i have to paint that fake smile on my face every day and pretend that im the happiest boy on this planet. 

Well here is the real deal: 

I dont feel good enough for people and their expectations that they have. I absolutely hate that every one remembers me for the mistakes that Ive done in my life. Im fucking tired of people not giving me credit for the good things that i do. Im fucking tired of feeling so alone and having no one to count on. But worst of all, im fucking tired of having to pretend to be someone that everyone wants me to be. im fucking tired of having feelings for the most wrong people in this world. Im fucking tired of having people telling me “its not you its me. you r an amazing guy and you will find someone amazing but you r too good for me and i am not worth it” I am sick and tired of having girls like me because im the good boy and im the rght guy to be around. im tired of people not liking me for who i am. and im fucking tired that everyting has to happened to me. same stupid story but with different characters. 

im fucking tired of this hard-to-keep-up lifestyle. 

im tired of my lifestyle.

im fucking tired of being tired.